This happens to me when I am low. And when I am low for no reason. Like I am today. I sit and think about me. It is a standard list of questionnaire. A self introspecting questionnaire. Who am I? What am I? Am I a nice person? Am I making a difference? What I have realised is that this is the time I get into this self denial mode. All attempts are to completely negate my being.Unfortunately, I make all the attempts to push myself further into the dark dungeons of lowliness. And I act like a villain, completely against myself.
Am I not suppose to be my best companion? Am I not suppose to be compassionate with myself?
Today, I just thought that I will not let this questionnaire start. I will work on being empathetic to myself. Like I am to my friends. I thought today "I" will be "My Best Friend" :)
So here I am. Trying to understand my best friends problem. Trying to make myself feel that no matter what , I am there with my best friend. I am reminding my best friend that there are so many things so beautiful cause of me. I am helping myself to find solutions to my own problems :)It feels so good just being there for myself! And this works wonders!!!! I feel good about knowing what I am from my own self :)
Today even if the questionnaire starts my answers will be positive. I will remember again and again that being happy makes all beautiful things happen :) Instead of going deeper and deeper in a sorrowful state, I will quickly be out of it , feel happy and add to the beauty of this world :)
I promise that I will remain a smile which spreads faster than the frown I can be :)
